Yummy?
Mood:
flirty
I feel a bit... bad.
I dont know, maybe its confusion I feel. Its something, and its not exactly a good feeling cuz I dont know how to handle the situation.
See, my girlie isnt too keen on... "the mess" that a guy - me - will normally make during physical contact. Its not that she doesnt like touching it, its more like she doesnt like tasting it.
So the solution would be to not force her to do so, right? Wrong. Ive told her that its not something that I think she "needs" to do, but she doesnt listen. Shes a stubborn girl.
I dont know if she thinks that I really want her to swallow - I admit, the thought is a very nice one - or if she wants to try it cuz SHE wants to try it, but either way, shes attempted to on a few occasions.
The clear stuff she can handle, and she actually seems to like, but the white stuff, shes just not there yet.
Which brings me to yesterday.....
We came home yesterday and she decided that before she left she wanted to please me. I say "me" but the truth is, she likes doing it almost as much as I like having it done.
Anywho, she was doing it and eventually it got to the point where I was going to make a mess and I told her to stop, but she wouldnt. I tried to pull away, but she wouldnt let me. I thought perhaps she didnt understand what was going to happen so I rather quickly explained it to her, but she didnt budge. And then it happened.
As Ive mentioned before, I have the "ability" to make a very huge mess. Thats either a good thing, or a bad thing, depending on the girl and what she likes. And since my girl doesnt like it... yet... well, I feel bad for her.
But to her credit, she took almost every drop. A bit landed on her lips and chin, but the rest she caught. Did she swallow this time? No. But she also didnt go running to the sink like she used to.
Perhaps us slowing it down - a little bit here, a little bit there - allowed her to get used to it instead of being forced all at once.
But still, Im confused. On one hand, the inner me wants her to do it, but Im not so selfish that Im willing to put that thought above her not actually liking it, so I tell her not to try it and she gets kinda mad and says she wants to, and so I go along with it and usually end up liking the visual and mental image the end result brings.
So Im conflicted.
Any advice on this situation? Any at all would be appreciated.
Til next time...
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Posted by Seven
at 6:14 PM PDT
Updated: Wednesday, June 1, 2005 6:15 PM PDT